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When I saw her..

It was after my breakup, I shifted to a new place where after 4 to 5 months I saw a girl. A cute 17 years chick. She use to come with her dog (Neo). We started talking, and some fine day I gave her a confession about my feelings. Just one day before that day I got to know that she is a Star. She is a Singer. That one thing ” she is a Star ” made me think a hundred things before I tell her about how I feel towards her. “I gave up on the thought to tell her how I feel about her” but I talked to my mom and brother, they cleared my doubts and finally I managed to convey my feelings gathering all the courage I have.

(When you like someone the status doesn’t really matter, what matters is how genuine are you towards that person.)

So I told her about how I started liking her.. She very politely said No. Yes, it’s hurts when you get rejected. But there was a good part to it.. “We are still friends”. My feelings for her were not that strong or I wasn’t fully attached to her.

Reason to share this incident.

We often fail or fear to convey the feelings we have for someone. Fears like it might ruined the friendship, what if he or she said no.. Etc.,.

Let me make it clear to you guys. Whenever you like someone you should just go and tell them. Because the sooner you confess much lighter and easier it becomes for you to decide the rest. After getting an answer from the person, now you have choices ( these are choices if the answer is NO )

1. Keep chasing on him or her.

2. Move on focus on something else or yourself. (not someone else, okay?, just give a break to that chasing shit)

3. Have faith that some day she or he will come into your life as a partner or better one. Till that time I’ll explore my knowledge improve my skills, etc.

4. Find someone else.

Life give you choices either to move on and enjoy the present or to be stuck in the past or memories that hurt you. Your life, your choices. Be wise when you make one.

Be optimistic change your perspective.. “Life isn’t that complicated, but our minds are”.

– Sairaj.

Kya Mohabbatein thi yaar…

Aur doston kya haal hai ? Umeed hai Sab badhiya hai, Sab safe hai. Iss baar thoda lamba samay lag gaya wapsi ko. Maafi chahunga sabse.

Aaj ka yeh topic yeh experience main janta hu harr koi relate kar jayega. Toh aaj main batana chahta hu meri aaj tak ki meri unn mohabbaton ke baare main jinka meri life main bhot impact raha… Ki gali ke mod par joh ladki thi, kaise teacher 7th main Kisi teacher ne mujhe kya jawaab diya. Fir college main aake pehli baar kaise heart break hua.. Aaj iss sabki baatein hongi.

Toh shuru karte hai…

Pehli baar mujhe mohabbat hui jab 4th standard main tha ek dost thi 1 saal badi thi umr main. Sath rehne lage masti karne lage.. Fir dono taraf se ik din izhaar hua… Dono ne ha kaha.. Fir sath ghumna, firna.. Fir yaar vacations main gaav jaate waqt woh dukh, ki 2 mahine ab use dekh nahi payenge fir koi dukh bhare gaane main khudko imagine karna… Par yaar woh waisi mohabbat fir nahi hui. Ki jab hum bichad gaye the na, breakup ho gaya tha hum fir bhi ache dost bane rahe jab tak sath rahe. Aaj ke daur main najane q mushkil hai uss insaan se dosti rakhna jispe aap marte ho. Mujhse toh nhi hota. Khair aage badhte hai.. Meri agli mohabbat.

Toh meri uss pehli mohabbat k baad bht se haseen chehre zindagi main aaye aur chale gaye,  fir school main 7th standard main ek teacher thi humari bht khubsurat aur pyaari thi, strict nahi thi. Main hamesha unke lec main bht Masti karta tha Taaki unka dhyan Mujhpe rahe.. Fir woh paas bulake samjhati yaa fir kaan marod deti, kabhi gaal khich deti,.. Aise bht se kisse hai. Lekin shayad yeh joh mohabbat maine ki zindagi main aisi mohabbat dobara Mujhe kisise nahi hui. Kyunki yeh meri mohabbat nadaan aur ek tarfa thi aur haqiqat se wakif thi. Ki teacher joh hai bhaiya married hai.. Upar se newly married couple matlab inke bich main joh pyaar hai Filhal woh saatve aasmaan pe hoga. Toh ek kaam karte hai “Iss Chand ko paane ki umeed chod dete hai, yeh bhi kya kam ke unke favorite student hum hai”. Aur yeh joh ek tarfa relationship tha mera unke sath jinka unhe ghanta idea nahi tha. Isme mera dil tutta tha jab woh mujhe datt deti actually naraaz ho jaati.. Ab aisa bhi ki gf hai. Ki sorry baby sorry baby kehke maan jaye hai na..? Aur fir tabadla (transfer) ho gaya. Par unke jaane se pehle maine unse apni mohabbat ka izhaar jarur kiya.. Jispe unhe Bht hi pyaar se kaha ki kaash tumne yeh meri shaadi se pehle bataya hota.. I would’ve said yes to you…❤.

Toh aisi bhi mohabbat thi.. Jisme expectations nahi the, ego, promises, dates..aisi bachonwali harqate nahi thi woh bhi bachpan main aur thoda bada hua toh yahi sabse guzre hum bhi.. 

Toh ab seedha college ki baat karenge…
Main college mein aane tak aur bhi bhot si ladkiyan aachuki thi zindagi main. Par unn main se ab itna koi yaad nahi aata. Isliye main JAUN ELIA SAHAB ek Sher hamesha kehta hu unn sabke liye ki…

” SHAYAD MUJHE KISISE MOHABBAT NAHI HUI… MAGAR YAKEEN SABKO DILATA RAHA HU MAIN”..❤

Toh college main toh puri duniya hi alag aur nayi thi.. Roz kisi na kisise mohabbat ho rahi thi.. Aisa bhi time aaya ki mohabbat ho rahi thi par Sab ek tarfa.. Charo aur se rejection. Par hum bhi dhit. Fir kisi se mohabbat hui joh ki do tarfa nikli kuch samay k liye jaise hi unka Dil bhar gaya woh bhi ek tarfa ho gayi... Par Koi gham nahi. I was, I’m alive and that’s enough. Par iss mohabbat main kafi dard tha shuru se… Wahi Gile Shikwe.. Expectations, fake promises, jealousy, possessiveness, trust issuses.. Aur yeh bhi nahi ki saari khamiyan unme thi.. Kuch kamiyan mujh main bhi rahi.
Main apni iss mohabbat ko chand Shero main mukhtasar karke sunata hu jab bhi kisiko sunau usi main se yeh ek Sher ki

” Shaq karna galat jarur tha, Par mere shaq saare sahi the..”

main isse azad Sher kehta hu Qki yeh kiska h mujhe khabar nahi. Iss mohabbat main joh dard Mujhe shuru se tha woh mere sath mere breakup K baad bhi raha aur koh jaruri tha. To polish myself to be an artist, to be a better person. Still I couldn’t be one.. I still do alot of mistakes. Fir iss relationship se nikalne k baad. Aisa nahi tha ki ladkiyan nahi mili aur pasand nahi aayi.. Lekin Phir relationship main janeki jaldi nahi thi, aisa lagta ki ready nahi hu.. kabhi jarurat nahi lagi.
Fir ek dedh saal Haq se single rehne k baad…

Meri agli mohabbat… “Shayad” yeh akhri bhi ho sakti hai. Yeh bhi ek tarfa hi rahi par iss mohabbat main bechaini bhot thi.. Darr tha.


Ek umeed ab bhi hai ki kya pata zindagi main aage kuch ho jaye.. Par unse uss insaan se koi umeed nahi hai.. Ki woh ha kahe ya gharwalo k khilaf ho jaaye.. Naah.. Bilkul nahi. Aur woh pehle se agar kisi aur ki hai toh fir usse kya hi umeed karna.. Ki cheat kare ?.. Arrey Kathai nahi.

Aisa Pyaar paya bhi toh kya paya…

Upar se yeh haal h ki Hume jinse mohabbat h woh humse umr main badi hai… Toh jab Maine izhaar kiya Toh Unhone Kaha Mujhse ki hum Toh bade aapse… Humne bhi keh diya fir aap humse Thoda jyada pyaar kar lena.

Par kahi baar aisa hota ki hum jaisa sochte ya chahte hai waisa aksar nahi hota yaha bhi kuch aisa hi hua… Hum din bhar baatein karte… Subah ke 4 baje tak… Fir kuch unhona hua ki aisi naubat aan padi k hume baatein band karni padi… Ek dusre ko sambhalne ek dusre bachane main. Halaat aise hue ki unhe bata na sake koi wajah h unse durr jaane ki.. Bas yahi ek baat mujhe khalti hai. Unhe Batana tha “Tumhare apno ka dil na Tute Isliye tumhara dil Tod rahe hai.. Maaf Kardena”. Khair aaj bhi ek umeed dil main barkaraar h ki sab thik hoga, sab sahi hoga, hum fir milenge baatein karenge. Qki iss baar jaani give up karneka mann nahi… Kya halaat hue Toh hum alag hue use mukhtasar karke sunane ki koshish ki hai..

” Ek dhoke ki ghadi najane kitne bhram tod deti hai..
Mohabbat ka mohabbat main kuch nahi jaata..
Saali dosti mohabbat main dum Tod deti.

Aaj yeh batana isliye jaruri tha Qki zindagi main harr kisine pyaar kiya hai. Ek tarfa Ho ya do tarfa… Aur uss harr Pyaar ki ek insaan ke zindagi main apni apni ehmiyat hoti hai. Woh 10 saal main kiya hua ishq bhi Utna hi jaruri tha, 13 main joh hua woh, 17 aur 21 main joh hua hai woh bhi… Harr uss umar ka ishq uss umr K liye jaruri tha.. Isliye khush raho mohabbat karo moahhabat bato.. Mohabbat aur Pyaar ki hi bhuki h duniya… Aur bhai yaar give up nahi karna Qki aage jaake naa paane ke Gham se jyada iss baat ka sukoon hoga ki yaar koshish toh puri ki thi..

Aur jab bhi meri jaan kisise Pyaar karo… Yaad rakhna woh haa kahe Yaa na kahe.. Usse mohabbat beumeed Karna… Khali mohabbat. Jisme mohabbat K alawa kuch naa ho.. Naa paane ki umeed, na khone ka Darr, naa milne ki khushi, naa bichadne ka Gham,… Aise mohabbat ho aapki jaha bas aap unhe khush chahte hai… Woh bhale aapke sath ho yaa kisi Aur K sath.. Main yeh nhi kehta ki use paane ki koshish nahi karo, Par milni hi chahiye yeh umeed bhi nhi karo jaani.

Toh yahi Rukkar aap sabhi se Vida lunga aur fir Milunga kisi naye experience ko share karne.

Tab tak K liye Khuda Hafiz doston.
Stay blessed, stay safe.

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My first “RUSH”.

Hi! Kaise hai aap sab?

Aaj ka topic bada interesting hai. Par sabse pehle jara baat karte hai rush ki.. Kya hai yeh rush? Kitni saari feelings hoti hai na ek insaan main bas unhi feelings ka ek bhot chota sa hissa hai yeh. Thoda aur aasaan karta hu.. Hum kitne uljhe se hai life main. Kitne pareshaan harr choti baat se.. Hain na??
Par kya inn mix emotions ke bich kabhi ek aisi feeling, ekdum weird si kuch kar jaane ki, kuch bhi jaise kuch likhna, kisi ki yaad aa gayi usse baat karni hai, use dekhna hain durr se sahi par sirf dekhna hai, yaa kuch aisa karna hai ki rukne ko mann na kare.. In short jab aisa lage yaar ye karna hai.. Abhi.. Isi waqt.. Kardo!!
Kya ho jayega?  Kya darr hai? Outcomes ka.. toh ek baar dil pe hath rakh ke pucho khudse kya abhi joh ho raha hai, joh chal raha hai, kya main khush hu.. Par agar joh karne ka khayal aaya hai kya woh mujhe khushi dega.. Pal bhar k liye q naa ho aur agar ha toh q naa karlu. Aur agar outcome tumhe thoda bhi sukoon deta hai na. Go for it.

Sabka ek Rush hota hai, jiske ke liye woh bhot marte hai. Kuch ko paison ka hai, kuch ko cars, kuch ko khana,..
Par mera rush isme se kuch bhi nhi hai filhal.. Filhal joh mera Rush hai woh hai “APPRECIATION” .Mujhe acha lagta hai jab koi tareef karta hai. Par meri nahi mere kaam ki. Mujhe acha lagta hai jab mera kaam logon ko pasand aata hai mujhe uss kaam ko aur karne ka mann karta hai bas karte rehne ka mann karta hai.. . Yeh sab shuru ek event se. Ek Open Mic event jaha maine perform kiya tha. Waha se bahar aakar jab main logo se mila aur unhone jab mujhe bataya ki unhe mera kaam kitna pasand aaya bas uss din woh ek chaska lag gaya. Appreciation ki bhuk lagne lagi fir ek baat toh soch rakhi thi ki ek insaan kyu naa kare par kaam kuch aisa hi karunga jaha uski kadar ho. Hum aksar yuhi choti choti baaton ko nazar andaaz karte hai jabki yahi baatein zindagi main bhot change la sakti hai. Woh Open Mic event 30th March 2019 ka tha, par realize aaj hua ki life mein mujhe kya karne se kick milti hai. So agar aisa lage ki yaar it’s too late. Toh yaad rakhna “Better late than Never” isn’t it? Aur yeh Rush bhaisahab bade kaam ki chiz hai. Aur jab yeh rush lage na toh yaar sochna mat kar jaana. I don’t know aage kya hoga par yaar ek khushi jarur rahegi ki yaar karke “Maza jaroor aaya”.

Aur aaj yeh rush hi hai joh mujhe aap sabse wapas milane aaya ek naye topic k sath. Itna mat socho yaar karlo. Acha lagta hai isliye hi karlo.

Aur guys agar aapka bhi aisa rush wala kissa ho yaa koi kisi chiz toh mujhe jarur batana comments main Main jaroor jaan na chahunga air definitely reply karunga .

Phir Milenge.. Khudahafiz!!

Stay Home, Stay Safe.

I couldn’t move on…

It’s almost 8 9 months after my breakup and I haven’t moved on yet, but my ex did. Chalo let her be happy wherever she is. And I know it just seems easy but it’s not, not for everyone.

Hey there guys, how are you? Well today’s topic is about moving on. Toh guys jaise maine upar kaha I haven’t moved on yet aur agar aap bhi kuch aise hi manzar se guzar rahe hai, toh aapko bata du “it’s okay to move slowly”. We ain’t racing here, right?

Hum hamesha yahi sochte hai woh jaldi move on kar gaya or kar gayi par aisa nahi hai guys we all have different mindsets some of us take time to accept things, kuch jaldi accept kar lete hai. Harr kisiko haq hai apni zindagi Ke faisle lene ka, if you think woh move on kar gaya or kar gayi probably you just trying to play victim here. Yaar usne tumhe roka bhi toh nahi hai move on hone se.. Ab yeh hum hi hai joh move on bhi nahi hona chahte aur shikayat karte hai ki woh move on kar gaye. Toh pehle toh doston shikayat karna chod do.

Aur baat rahi ki aap move on nahi kar paa rahe ho toh ruk jao, don’t struggle so much just to move on, because eventually you will. Mushkil hai naamumkin nahi. In my case I tried moving on but I possibly couldn’t do it and I’m totally fine with it. Rather than me focusing on moving on, I would focus on something which could help me move on faster. I love writing, making new friends, hanging out ( mostly alone😁 ), do crazy things, annoy people for no reason, etc.

Bohot khubsurat lines padi thi maine kahi pe ki..

“Zindagi agar tumhe sau gham deti hai rone ko, tum use ek wajah dedo apne muskurane ki.”

Ek wajah main aapko deta hu guys

” YOU ARE ALIVE ” after whatever you have been through so far, be proud of yourself. Hum aksar sunte hai log life main kisi na kisi pressure mein aake suicide karte hai. Koi padhai ke pressure main hai, kisi se uska relationship nahi sambhala jaa raha, kisi ko darr hai woh exam mein fail ho jayega, Koi bas yuhi society ke pressure mein aake marne ka khayal kar raha hai aur aise kahi kisse aur mautein humne dekhi, suni aur jaani hai.Be proud my friend you aren’t that weak, you are strong and smart enough to handle things no matter how badass the situation is 😁😎. Remember one thing if you ever feel like giving up, backing out or holding back, just ask one question to yourself why you even started? Aur baat rahi move on karne ki woh toh meri jaan tum eventually kar hi jaoge agar itna Sab kuch survive kar sakte ho mere bhai Toh sochona, kya move on karna is sach mein a big deal?  Nahi just give yourself some time. Don’t stress yourself thinking ki main kyun move on nhi kar paa raha or kar paa rahi, stop doubt yourself.

YOU WILL DEFINITELY MOVE ON AND FIND SOMEONE YOU DESERVE. TUMHE MANGNA NAHI PADEGA USSE KUCH, USKA ATTENTION, USKA TIME ETC..

Just remember these lines friends


So don’t stress yourself just because it’s difficult for you to move on. It only happens with people who have a pure heart ❤. So rather than being stress, Be proud you one of them.

– Sairaj

Toh yaaro aaj yahi pe rukte hue vida lunga aur fir mulaqat hogi ek naye topic ke sath. Aur guys if you want me to write or talk about a topic you are interested in plz let me know in the comments.

Till then KHUDAHAFIZ🙏

I stopped

“I stopped”

Well it was difficult for me to that but was necessary as well for my own good maybe. We have a saying

“Everything happens for a reason”.

Usse pyaar karne ke kahi reasons the mere pas. Aaj rukjane ka reason bhi mil gaya.

Toh kissa kuch yu hua doston, ki
mein harr raat apne building ke compound mein jaake baitha rehta tha, deir raat tak bas use dekhne. Kyunki pura din kabhi woh busy kabhi mein. Toh sukoon se dekhlu usse ek baar yahi sochkar deir raat ko hum pagal ki Tarah baithe rehte apne compound mein. Fir Mohtarma ji aati apne kutte ko leke.. Waise ek aur baat bata du unke kutte ke sath meri bohot achi dosti hai 😁.
Ab kariban ek mahina yeh silsila jari raha, par aaj kuch aisa hua ki rukjane ka man kiya.
Roz ki tarah mein aaj bhi jaa baitha niche aaj bas meri jagah badal gayi thi, mein waha nhi baitha jaha rozana baithta hu.. Woh aayi aur yu chali gayi samnese ke mein waha tha hi nahi yeh baat mujhe hurt kar gayi toh main bhi waha se chala gaya. Ab woh compound ki dusri taraf uss kutte ko ghuma rahi thi kyunki shayad uss taraf mein nahi tha ab hone ko yeh ek galatfehmi (assumptions) bhi ho sakti hai. Par yeh pehli baar nhi tha toh shayad yeh galatfehmi naa bhi ho.
Doston yeh kissa aap tak pohochane ka kaaran yeh hai ki, hum ladke kisi ladki ke piche zara jyada hi hadd se guzar jaate hai. Khud ko kabhi bas nhi kehte, aur hum khud hi apne self respect ki dajjiya uda dete hai. Par hadd se guzarna galat nhi, kyunki tabhi jaake hum ek sahi attitude build up kar paate hai. Waise harr ladka yeh nahi kar pata. Toh unko mein itna hi kahunga ki bhaiya itni taqat yaa mehnat kahi aur kyu nahi karte jaha se ache returns mile, Bhale woh ladki se ho yaa kisi kaam se.

Bohot hi seedhi si baat hai doston.

“Khud ki izzat pehle khud Karo, tab kahi Jaake Duniya karegi”

Aur ladke joh kehte h ladkiyon mein attitude hai, understanding nahi hai, akdu hai etc. Aap sabhi se itna hi kahunga ki, uss ladki ne kabhi tumse aake yeh nahi kaha tha ki mere piche bhago. Toh isme galti tumhari hai. Agar tumhe nhi pata kaha rukjana hai, kisko jyada imp dena hai use ya khudko. So plz kisi bhi ladki ke bare galat baatein kehna chod do.

“Sab Par kuch gairon ki, kuch apno ki aur kuch halaton ki meherbaniyan rahi hai. Tab koi aisa banta hai, ab log paidaishi badtameez toh nahi hote”.                
                                 
                                       – Sairaj

Aur baat rahi ki tumse nahi ho paa raha khudko rokna aur tumhe ab bhi woh ladki chahiye. Toh itna kahunga ki uske  piche mat bhago,


“Uske piche bhago joh woh ladki tumhe dilade”.

Mujhe mere khuda pe yakeen hai, maine joh manga mujhe mila hai haa thodi der se sahi par mujhe uss baat ka gham nahi.
Aur Maine ek baat sikhi hai.
Tumhe mangne ki bhi jarurat nahi.

“Kehte woh dua unki bhi Sun Leta hai jinki Awaaz nhi nikalti”.

Tum haqq se mango apne khuda ke pas, woh dega tumhe joh tum deserve karte ho yaa joh tumhare liye sahi ho. Aur mein chahunga doston ki aap bhi meri iss baat par soche.

Toh doston aaj yahi rukh kar aap sabhi vida lunga.. Aur phir milenge kisi aise hi kisse ke sath. KHUDAHAFIZ 🙏

When your ex try to come back or keep playing with your mind.

There is a beautiful line said by Atif Aslam the most popular singer. How a person feels a connection with god after his or her partner has been cheating or left them. After such situations in lives we most certainly get attached to god we come in contact with him in such a way that the person who left us comes back to us automatically but at that point of time we stand at a stage where we need them no more, you left that person behind along way ago. Because this connection, this energy with god has made you so beautiful that god himself knows you deserve something or someone better. A soul just like your soul.

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